my life is a bowl full of cherries

Thursday, November 17, 2005

pleading insanity

my head keeps spinning
with a constant flow of drama
flung at eachother
all day and nighth
it gets so bad
your trust is lost
and for days
you disappear
you finally return
making false statements
to deflect your faults
you knew what you were doing
you thought you were getting away with it
not this time
you wasted our time
we wasted our tears
they got you this time
i hope your cell is cold and hard
i hope you learn this lesson
open your damn eyes!
look at the pain you caused
for you own selfish reasons
your setting a bad example for the youngest
shes following closer than we expected
you may be a lost cause
but she can still be saved
if only youd stay away
you're are ruining our plans
you're hurting ur own family
but you dont care
you only care about your wants and "needs"
you think you are the only one who does care
but that EVERYONE should
you arent the only one and we do care
you get everything just given to you and if it isnt
you take it
i cant give you my thoughts too
i want you here
but i want you gone more
if you change your seflish ways you can stay
i dont want you stealingour things
stepping on us like ur more important
ruining our plans
or separating out family
i hate you 10x more everytime you do
i think you are selfish
having you gone
is 10x less stressful then when you are here
dont try to run thoughs guilt trips
those little.. ohh poor brittany
people will look at you and think
ooohh poor Iehl family..
you mean nothing right now
i hope you learned your lesson
the HARD way
i want to watch you suffer
long and tiresome hours
just like you put us through
i love you
but i hate you soo much more
its easier to live without you!
stay away!
i disown you as my sister
and i pray to god that gabby is spared
your mistakes
you can think im wrong but...
im not!
you are!
you always have been
no one has said ne thing
they are all afrais of you
but im not anymore
you pushed me soo far
my eyes glow bright red
at the sound of your name
i hope i never have to see
your lying face again
i dont want you anymore
you think you are oh so nagical
that you can live and make it on your own
with no job, no car, and no money
stay out of my life
i never want to look
into those untruthful eyes ever again
you are no longer my family..
your branch has been cut from our family tree
please go quietly
before i plead insanity..

in case you didnt understand this it is what i meant to say to brittany since that august night...strike one..strike two.. at three im calling the vet!
by the way ashley we just scheduled my drivers test for january 26th at 2-40 but that means i actually have to drive...sniffle
ne ways..
luv ya bunches


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