unpleasant flashbacks....

last night we noticed that brittany had snuck out of the house and didnt take her cell phone or the car.. we locked her out of her bedroom so she couldnt get in..hehe.. i guess she got home this morning and went to sleep in kaity's old bedroom but she wasnt there all morning cuz anne was in there early in the morning and then she went down to her office for a while and when she came back up brittany was in there sleeping.. but when anne checked at about 2-ish the blanket she used and her were gone and they havent been back since.... this morning i had to wake up at 7 to get to the high school at 8 cuz my dad had to organize this silent auction thing.. and then at like 10 i went downstairs to do play makeup.. and the time that randi gave us for the starting time was a half an hour early so we got down there and did makeup early. so we got done early too... then since i wanted to see who signed up for what times i ended up going down every hour to see who was there and then towards the last couple of groups lyon had me help instead of standing around telling the guys that they looked like drag queens..which they very much did..lol.. then we ordered pizza and then at 5 i went to steves pizza and ate with the percussionists..then we got back and i called you and you said you were still planning on comming but you werent sure cuz you had to work but you were going to try...so i went into the band room with gabby weidling and katy.. and i started hanging out with my other friends and kaleigh came up to me and asked is she could see my drumsticks that i was holding cuz they werent out with the rest of the pit crap..so i let her see them and the first thing she does is pretend she is playing the drums except she was doing that on my boobs and now i guess my new nickname is bongos... i actually had to ask her if she was drunk cuz she was very odd!.. and then after waiting about an hour for the live auction to get over with we finally started to play at about 8-30 ish and after that we did senior gifts and during the very long stories that people decided to tell i accidently compared you missing this in door marching concert to mom missing everything else..you both missed it cuz of work.. and neither of you were there tonight but whatever...it just bugged me how mom used to say i'll be there and then i'd look for her and i wont see her in the crowd cuz she had to work... again...not to say you meant it you said that you were sittin at the seat of your pants and you didnt know when you were gonna get done but you were gonna try and make it.. and not like ur ne thing like mom.. but it just reminded me of that... well then after everything it was about...10_45 wehn we got to leave the school...we were sposed to go tping but it was raining and they didnt wanna risk any car accidents cuz even last time there were a couple when it was abit more light out and it was dry so..and then lots of ppl and to leave at 11-30.... the only reason we didnt get to leave the highschool til 10-45 was becuz we had to sort through all of the pit crap and we had to listen to what tyson had to say and then he gave us shirts and we were allowed to leave.. but ya.. maybe if ne thing esle happens i'll write again but as of this moment nothing seems like it will.. maybe brittany will come home.. actually im thinking realatively soon im gonna go insane.. after play is over im gonna have to ask dad if i can just stay after school everyday and do homework of sumpthing til a certain time cuz i dont wanna go home to the drama everynightfrom three til i go to bed at like..12/12 ish.. its gonna make me go insane and perty soon everything will be over and the only thing that i will be able to use as a distraction from my family's many problems is my homework which i neglect to do ne ways but this quarter i actually need to do homework cuz i have geometry, genetics, world studies,band and choir..and my job which will only be on the weekends..
ne ways..
ttyl
lylas
always and forever
TIF